Your Study Sets Your Speed

 "I'm not going to commit to something that I know I can't keep up with."

That is the issue with why some people wouldn't answer the calling of being fully spiritually committed and teach their skills of manifesting or awareness in a FIRST PERSON VIEW. When I was a child I always looked in the mirror and wondered why I can't see myself outside of this object...a mirror. I would sometimes feel that everyone else can see me on the outside all the time, but I would only be able to see myself from the outside... In a mirror. I was at times so distraught with this thought sometimes that I remember crying hard when I was about 7 years old just hardcore boohooing. Actually typing this out now I feel the emotions running back into me. They flood like a swell in my brain remembering the thoughts. I wondered why I couldn't see myself outside of a mirror and believing it not to be fair I could only see FIRST PERSON. However, on this spiritual journey I have come to realize that looking outward is more beautiful than myself. As long as I love myself I am the Judge of what my life looks like. What signs and syncronicities I want to see with my eyes and feel with my body. When you sync up every little thing in your life within the seconds it's happened and know that there is a sign for nearly EVERYTHING happening in the world that you are aware of. You just have to NOTICE the beauty in anything.

What I mean by this is take notice to a bird flying, what direction was it going? Left, right, turning around, is it going in your direction while driving or walking, what color was it, am I wearing that color, what do birds symbolize? Our brain/spirit can decipher these questions so fast and consistently that it's freaking rediculous! And the other thing the brain/spirit is willing to do is TAKE NOTE if it doesn't know the answer so you can LOOK UP THE ANSWER LATER. Question EVERYTHING and you will LIFT A VEIL.

Symbolism in everything you can pick up takes being at peace in your mind. I've lost signal on my GPS and began following just license plate numbers, specific color cars, specific cars I know I like (Audi) or past cars I've had, and looking at turn signals and the timing to the next curve or if I have space to get over. Turning based off birds flying in one direction or a leaf blowing in the left or right direction. All this while driving safely and some how getting to my destination without going off route... Definitely not because I remember fully. I'm back in ATL and have definitely forgotten some cuts and parallel roads lol. But I feel guided and it's internally by just using my mind and spirit to take and accept the symbolism I am viewing outside of me in the present.

It's a gift, but I can understand why some people will not want to look that deep into every bit of their intuition and symbolism or numbers. You have to figure out ALLOT in a BLINK OF AN EYE to get navigating your life by your SOUL and not by who or what is guiding you (like my navigation).

"I'm not going to commit to something that I know I can't keep up with."

All I have done to keep up with this is start out with numbers. Figuring out the vibrations and meanings of the numbers and the sequence I'm seeing. Finding a 69 is a treat for me, because I am a Cancer 3x Stellium. On my birth chart I have 3 planets that were in the sign of Cancer at the exact time and day I was born in Ansbach, Germany (Army Dad). Sun, Moon, and Mercury and the Cancer Crab is known for the symbol ♋ or 69 numerically. Always looking for numbers when I want that direction or just for fun I will read license plates or the price of an item to decide on what to purchase based off the arrangement of the numbers. 

I'm just finding out that my North Node in Pisces ♓ (Ruler of Neptune) and Pisces ruling over the 12th House is the reason my intuition is so guiding! 

There's always an external force or vibration that influences our decisions. "Product of our environment" is the quote that minimally explains this concept/belief.